全副武装，抵抗寒冷

人说在美国，冬天外面再冷只要在房间里，绝对暖和得只用穿短袖。而实际的情况是，我家暖气只供三楼，可怜我一个人在楼下，手脚冰凉，给房东打电话至今无响应；学校实验室，暖气也约等于没有，老房子嘛。于是，我只有穿得厚一点，头顶棉帽，脚穿双层袜子。

这就是纽约的冬天……

最近我依然迷失，只是迷失的过程中偶尔会有一些小Happy，转身便遗忘。我总是装作不在乎，却再入睡前无声叹息。我不太喜欢用一些不够“温和”的词语，只是到现在，只有走下去路，我的选择只有两个，“努力”或者是“努力”，安逸。安逸是我永远的生活状态，呵呵。

回家，大家都要回家，我也想回家。只是，我的口袋里没有家门的钥匙了。

找温暖，也许只有期盼有暖气的日子早点来吧~

人越长大反而越需要顾虑需要屈从需要折中，有时候就算想好很认真的做一件事情，也会因为一些不可知的原因半途而废。我不想活的那么现实——即使必须面对冰冷和坚硬，但我至少会武装自己，抵抗寒冷。

胡言乱语以上都是。

I really need some change

I planned to write a letter as a gift to myself to celebrate my birthday, and post it on my blog to memorize my 24. I thought about it couple days ago. I hoped to do something to inspire and encourage myself, and many words came into my head. But I gave up this idea at last minute, because I thought it should be low-key.

This birthday was really special. I went through thousands of moods and feelings, even severe pain of a bumblebee sting. I thank you who remembered my birthday and gave me your blessings that really made me happy.

Maybe it’s only an ordinary day as usual, but to me, it’s a milestone, it’s a sign of change. I thought about my life many times like everyone else. What I really want to be? What I really want to do? What is my ultimate goal? How could I make it? I really need some change, from now on. I don’t want to change my view of the world, and I don’t want to change my attitude in every field. I just want to change my ways of living and study. In the other word, I do not want to be someone else. A better me, that right. I’m not a kid anymore, although I prefer to think like a child.

So that’s it. I need to be smarter, more diligent. How to implement? I don’t know. But first things first, I need to learn self-control immediately, push me forward all the time. I’ve already tasted failure thousands of times, why don’t I keep trying? More failure means closer to the success. Alongside the burden and pressure, a pair of powerful wings is right there on my shoulders.

For the pursuit of happiness, never stop pursuing a better me.

 

P.S. Thanks, Viki. Your postcard is the biggest surprise of my birthday. It’s so sweet.

 

Happy birthday to me

Now I’m wishing happy birthday to me.

在路上

今天天气大好，好的让人觉得很不真实。突然会有种身处理想世界的感觉。可是这一切在那个时候并不能让我开心多少。郁闷三分钟，难过十分钟。之后我依然觉得我是传说中Anels。小挫折嘛，谁不经历点。问题的关键是，我必须从中找出自己的差距和弱点。所以，偶“痛下决心”，要像家乡的英雄们学习！还要向印度同学们学习！总有一天，我会做到滴～

很好，很好。大家都在挫折中长大，百折不挠，我的挫折正好在背心，挠不到。囧几分钟吧。至少，偶思想还算比较简单，烦恼也就一刹那的事情。过了就过了。只是觉得，这段时间能不能短一些啊～

飙了，飚了，越扯越脱离主题。其实我想说的就是今天天气不错，权当我洗心革面，振作精神，承前启后，迈向新人生的慢慢长途中的一朵小花吧，让它驻留一阵就忘记吧。路途遥远，风雨坎坷，我只是惦记着下一站的美好，所以我总是快乐的，所以我做的一切都是值得的。就像老乔说："Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish."  我再加一句"Keep Moving Forward."

就算路上的风景再美或者路很长很崎岖很坎坷很BT，始终记得这不是终点。走不动歇歇，歇够了再走。